KESTER.
Terrifying…
She meant it.
Her eyes locked onto mine, and I swear I saw something fold in her
“You know what?” She wiped her eyes, “I want to be able to look at the father of my child and not wonder what he’s capable of. But I can’t. So, just leave. I never want to see you anywhere near me or my baby. Leave!”
That broke me.
She could threaten me with anything, but not our baby.
“Baby… What do I do to make you know how much I love you and that everything I do, I do for you? Kasmine…” I didn’t recognize my voice anymore, and the way my emotions spiraled from anger to hurt surprised even me.
“This isn’t love, Kester. It is control. I don’t want it. Just… Go…” She sobbed, her lips trembling so hard.
“Kasmine… please.” My words came out as a whisper, trembling with a vulnerability I had never shown to anyone except her. “Please just love me back. What does it take to love me? Baby?” I swallowed, closing the distance between us, “Just—just love me.” I begged.
I could feel my heart wrenching out of my chest.
My hands trembled as they reached for her, brushing against her arms as if afraid she might vanish if I held her too tightly.
She looked at me like I was something pitiful, something broken–and maybe I was.
“No! I can never love a selfish monster like you!” She let out a bitter scoff, wiping off the tears from her eyes with her trembling hands before letting them slump beside her as if she were tired of fighting.
“You don’t need love, Kester. You need help,” she stared at me weakly with those green orbs of hers, and I didn’t like the look I saw there… It was that of pity. Not love. Not the love I expected.
I wanted her to love me, not pity me.
“I am not selfish, Mine. I chose you. I always choose you. I’m. Still. Choosing. YOU!” I counted my words ever so slowly, ignoring the crack in my voice, “I gave up so much for you. I am going through this whole mess right now because of you and you call me
selfish?”
–
I closed the little gap between us. “Every drop of blood on my hands is there because of you! Everybody I have and will take down is because of you! Don’t you get it? Everything I’ve done, everything I’ve become it’s all for you.” I whispered, cupping her face in my trembling palms.
Why was her face blurry? Was I crying?
Fuck. Yes.
I was crying.
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Hot tears spilled down my cheeks, blinding me as the words tumbled out, unfiltered and raw. “I’ve bled for you, Kasmine. I’ll bleed again if that’s what you want. I’ll change. Tell me. What do you want me to do? I’ll fucking do it. Tell me how to make you love me. Please just give me a shred of your love, even for a second, I cried.
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My forehead pressed against hers, my tears sliding down to mingle with the warmth of her skin. I held onto her like letting her go would mean my end.
I couldn’t lose her. Couldn’t love the only woman I had spent my life loving. This was the only time I ever felt what love was. I wasn’t letting go.
“Mine…” My voice cracked, so low and ragged it barely sounded like mine. “You say this isn’t love. But you- I swallowed hard, shaking my head, you don’t understand what you’ve given me.”
I leaned in closer, needing her to feel this. To fucking know this.
“You think I’m breathing air?” I whispered. “You think I wake up every morning, and it’s oxygen keeping me alive?” Haughed, bitter and broken. “No. It’s you. It’s the little pieces of love you’ve thrown at me like scraps. That’s what I’ve been breathing, Kasmine. That’s what I’ve lived on.”
Her eyes flickered.
“You remember that night?” I asked quietly. “You remember what you said to me while you were shaking under me, your legs wrapped around me while I was inside you? You promised me forever, baby. You said you’d stay. You looked me in the fucking eyes and said you were mine.”
I stepped back half an inch. “I bought it. I bought every word you said to me. I believed it with every goddamn inch of me.”
I waited.
I waited for her to say it again. To say she still loved me. That she was just angry. That this was temporary. That she didn’t mean what she said earlier. Anything.
Instead, her lips curled bitterly. And she stared straight through me when she spoke.
“I said what you wanted to hear, Kester.”
It was so quiet.
So calm.
Like she was putting down a dog.
That single sentence carved through my chest like a serrated knife. I didn’t even feel my hands drop from her face. My body just… shut off.
Something inside me buckled.
I took a step back.
Then another.
And another.
I couldn’t hear anything but my own pulse pounding in my ears. Couldn’t feel anything but the cold emptiness where the assurance of her words used. ive.
I nodded once. My jaw locked so tight I felt the muscle twitch. My hands curled into fists because if they didn’t, they’d start shaking.
I turned toward the door. But right before my hand touched the knob, I paused.
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“I didn’t do it to hurt you.”
I stared at the wood grain on the door. It looked like it was splintering. Or maybe that was just my vision blurring.
“Everything I did, I did to protect everything I care about.”
Then I stepped out.
And for the first time in a long time, I didn’t feel like the hero in my own story,
Author’s Note: Tomorrow is the big day we’ve been waiting for!!! As we await, if you’re enjoying the story, kindly drop a comment on the front page’s comment section. It would mean a lot to me, please. Thank you for coming this far. I love you aff.
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