Chapter 13
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I lay sprawled on my bed, my face buried deep into the pillow, clutching it like it was my lifeline. My chest ached, the subs wracking through me in a way that felt endless. It wasn’t just about Brendan. It was about everything that I had been pushing under the rug, trying my best to ignore. His betrayal was just a catalyst that went deeper, sinking into all the cracks I’d carefully patched over the months. Every wall I had built had crumbled in an instant, leaving me sifting through the wreckage of my insecurities.
At school, no one saw me. They saw “Kaiden Sterwalt’s sister.” Every time someone praised me, or I made it on the hockey team, people whispered that it was just because of him. Somewhere deep in my heart, I was aware of it, but I never let it break me the way it broke me today.
I wish Mom hadn’t married Kaiden’s dad. I wish I could go back to being just Lucy, with no one else’s name tied to mine. I want to work hard and earn things on my own, without anyone thinking it was because of someone else but me.
Being Kaiden’s sister had turned out to be my biggest misfortune. It was like being given a gift I’d never asked for, one that came wrapped in chains rather than ribbons.
People respected me. But they only respected me for being his sister. Not for being the MVP of my team and making them win the match. Not for securing the highest grade in the test. Not for winning the state–level chemistry quiz. I’d worked so hard to get there. Countless hours of practice, pushing through my fears, silencing my insecurities, trying to be good enough. But all that effort meant nothing in their eyes. They only saw my connection to him. To them, I wasn’t Lucy with her own ambitions and passions; I was merely an extension of Kaiden’s shadow.
And the worst part? A piece of me wondered if they were right. Was I anything more than that? Are all my achievements useless? Do I really need to stick on like a leech and suck someone else’s surname like my mom did her entire life?
I buried my face deeper into the pillow, my fingers tightening, digging into the mattress, grounding me against the pain.
Then, through the walls, I heard sounds–soft at first, which made me wonder if it was my imagination. But as I pulled my focus out of my grief and listened, they grew louder and clearer. It was a girl’s moans, rich and breathy, echoing like she was the happiest person on earth. The realization twisted my gut–not because she was happy, but because it was a moan of pleasure. SEX.
Each soft, distant sigh, each breathy exhale, was like a reminder of the exact opposite of what I felt. “Seriously?” I thought, clenching my fists as another moan slipped through the walls, sweeter and more intimate than the last.
Just perfect. While I’m here falling apart, someone else is… enjoying themselves. It was like a cruel joke, and it only made my anger burn hotter.
For a few moments, I tried to shut it out by pressing both sides of my ears with pillows, telling myself it would end soon. But the minutes dragged on, one by one, until half an hour had passed, and the moans only seemed to grow more insistent. There was no way to ignore it now; it had filled my room, my mind, seeping into my bones until I could think of nothing else. And the worst part? I knew exactly whose room those sounds were coming from.
Kaiden. Of course it would be him. He does that every time when Mom’s out.
The sting of anger flared even hotter inside me. My breathing came in tight, quick bursts as I shot up from the bed, fury giving me the strength I’d lost moments before.
I stormed out of my room, my footsteps echoing through the hall as I made my way to his door, each step harder last. Anger pulsed in me, fueling me, heating my skin. “Here I am, broken, hating my life because of him, and the thought. “Enjoying one of the best moments in his life.”
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By the time I reached his door, I could barely breathe. The sounds were louder now, like they were mocking me, telling me that Kaiden was utterly unbothered by my misery. Not that he should, but still, anger doesn’t care for logic. Without a second thought, I raised my fist and banged on the door. The force of it shook the wood, but it didn’t satisfy the anger roiling in me. So I did it again, harder this time, then twisted the knob and shoved the door open without waiting for an
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Chapter 13
“Kaiden Sterwald” I shouted, barely aware that my eyes had squeezed shut in my fury. “I don’t want to be your sister!”
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Silence filled the room, thick and still, pressing against my eardrums as I finally opened my eyes to the stunned faces staring back at me.
My heart felt like it stopped the moment I opened my eyes. There he was THE Kaiden Sterwalt–in his full, naked glory. tangled up with a girl who was now staring at me with equal parts shock and annoyance: I couldn’t breathe. “Oh, my god.” The voice rang in my mind as my eyes darted around, but no matter where I looked, I couldn’t unsee it. “I saw Kaiden in his birthday suit.” My mouth fell open as I tried to process the scene before me, wishing I could melt into the floor and disappear.
They looked at me, still clueless, not a single ounce of shame between them. But finally, Kaiden moved. He stood, grabbing a towel and wrapping it loosely around his waist, covering… well, enough to allow me to breathe again. I stood frozen in place, unable to tear my gaze away from his crotch as the thing I saw before he covered it with that towel ruined my mind’s processing unit. My mind was blank, my pulse deafening in my ears as Kaiden approached, his usual confidence completely intact.
He stopped in front of me, my eyes still stuck to his crotch due to shock. His fingers reached out to tilt my chin up and then, I was staring into those hazel eyes, the ones that could disarm anyone, even me. “Well, that was…. perverted,” he said, voice low and steady. He smirked, a glint of something wicked in his eyes. “And, what were you saying before?”
Every part of me was trembling, and it wasn’t just anger now. My heart hammered against my ribs, and a heat crawled up my neck that had nothing to do with the fury still simmering inside me. I forced myself to stay rooted, to keep my eyes locked on his, “Not now, Lucy.” I said in my mind. “You came here with a purpose; now that you’ve poked the topic, you better give it a good end.”
I managed to find my voice, though it came out shaky and almost a whisper. “Kaiden Sterwalt,” I hissed, my voice laced with frustration and something unnameable that made my chest feel tight. “I don’t want to be your sister.”
I swallowed hard, bracing myself for what I had to say next. I wanted to tell him I was done with all of it–the special treatment, the endless shadow he cast over my life. I was about to tell him that he doesn’t have to chaperone me to the school or even act like he knows me at all, and also was about to warn him to not do these unholy deeds so loudly. But just as I opened my mouth, he leaned in, closing the space between us, his hand slipping around my waist.
“As you wish… Lucy Hailstone,” he murmured, his gaze darkening as his lips hovered just inches from mine. And before I could even gasp, his mouth found mine in a fierce, searing kiss that shattered every thought, every coherent part of me. His hand tightened on my waist, pressing me against him, and I felt myself dissolve into his touch, my mind blank, my body betraying me.
To be continued…